Hold it all together
Everybody needs you strong
But life hits you out of nowhere
And barely leaves you holding on…
The words resonated through me in the midst of my depression. I felt like I couldn’t hold on and the pressure to be strong was too much, but I didn’t dare give in to the rest I needed. I didn’t understand how this could be God’s plan for me.
…So when you’re on your knees and answers seem so far away
You’re not alone, stop holding on and just be held
Your world’s not falling apart, it’s falling into place
I’m on the throne, stop holding on and just be held…
God spoke to me through music. One night, I ended up listening to “Just Be Held” by Casting Crowns. The line “Your world’s not falling apart, it’s falling into place” became the anthem of my fight, a source of hope when I didn’t understand what was happening to me.
…And not a tear is wasted
In time, you’ll understand
I’m painting beauty with the ashes
Your life is in My hands…
Though at the time I could not see it, God gave me the strength to trust; and here I am today. I see the beauty God has made out of the ashes of my life, and I’m trying to share that.
The ashes are dancing.
Ashes Dancing 